Ooh, i feel another 1 comin...

When school started, it was such a drag
On time i was, with my overloaded bag

Never have been social, i sat down with a book
Gonna flip the page, when i turned around and look

Just with a glance, i saw mischief in your smile
On that day i remembered how you held your blue file (ran outa rhymies ><)

You made me laugh you made meh cry too but,
I never regretted knowing you =)

Believe it or not i was thinking of this at 4 in the morning. Haha, then when i was done i went "holy crap it's 4.52!" Then quickly went- no, tried to sleep. Well, pretty expected after spending the whole day on the com till 3am...

Heheheheee, im starting to like writing lame poetry. It's strangely fun. But i seems my ideas only come around in the mornin when im blurblur... Ish. Oh gosh, my blog's gonna start looking like Terance's! Ahhh! i blame you for this Terance! =P

There's something in that poem but let's not talk about it yea...

Couplets

I see you made another friend
I see the past all over again

Remember the times we used to play
We used to talk almost everyday

We were closer than anyone would've been but
My dear, loving you is a sin

Yes these are called couplets... It's a kind of poetry. I learned that from A series of Unfortunate Events. The book is nice you should read it (lol, advertising books). The couplets are just random i got from somewhere... I know it's lame rhyming but i like it. xD

Theory of a dead man - not meant to be

I was listening to this song for a few days adi without paying attention to whad it means xD
Then i told my sis "why do you always repeat this song??" Then she said the lyrics are nice so i looked it up... Turns out it really has some connection to me. Who knew?? 0o

Anyways here's da lyrics. Pretty meaningful =D

It's all repeating so skip some parts...

Theory of a dead man - Not meant to be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to ya
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh

It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad
And I, can't change your mind, oh

It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby that we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward,
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad,
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see,
Maybe that we're not meant to be

Lilapsophobia

Im having lilapsophobia. If you all don't know what that means, it mean a fear of tornadoes and hurricanes...

It's not that i had any experience with a tornado before oh nono, blame it on a stupid dream xD but don't show me 'swt' faces yet, it was rather scary ok... And no my dream is not as epic as the pic up there...

Well ya see, me and some dude (i forgot who was it) it was some unknown guy, we were in a huge wide-open field see. It looked really deserted and we could barely see the city--klcc and all that--from quite a distance. And the sky was really brownish darkish, but not as dark as that picture... Then i saw a tornado forming... It was so scary, it was like, bashing and crumpling klcc into bits. Just imagine yourself staring from a distance, while the tornado's coming towards you in a flash, destroying everything in it's way, and you know you couldn't out-run it. But what could i do? i was in some wide open deserted field, with some unknown guy yelling 'RUN! JUST RUN!' so i started running, and running with the guy behind me. Well... i woke up before anything happened... lol wth ><
And i gotta say, it was so effin real, so scary... gah. Anywhos, i tried lookin for a pic that is most similar to that dream... Hmm... i think it looked SOMETHIN like this:-

But the tornado looked wayyy more wider than this... Let's pretend we're in a large football field looking at it coming nearer to us... Hmm, well it seemed scarier in the dream. Ah well. Haha, compare the 1st pic to the 2nd pic. Lol, the epicness level, 10 to 0.

The future can wait

Lots of people are always worrying about the future nowadays. Which makes the present a meaningless reck. Which then turns into a useless past. So whatever you plan ahead to the future, don't worry about it. Let what will come, comes... Actually there's no specific reason in writing this post... lol.

It’s hard to see what you’re really looking for
When the path is cleared and there are no choices anymore
With the future planned ahead
When your goal is done and said
Then what’s the point of life if you don’t let your heart soar

I’m not saying don’t plan the future
Just don’t let it fill your head
With worries on whether you’ll make it, instead

Just enjoy wherever life takes you on
Cause you’ll never notice the little details till it’s gone

Im starting to write all these kinda stuff now... It's pretty fun xD
So anyways, that's really all i wanted to do. lol, Peace out.

Emo day?

Today... Is the best day of my life man.... You know why...? Cause i juz found out that i've been treating my best friend like shyt all this time and i didn't even noticed... And now, she won't even talk to me... And guess what it gets better, today i also made my other best friend pissed at me cos i did somthin wrong too... And now everybody is being emo cause of me~~! =.=

Just wanted to say, I'm really sorry for all the crap i've been bringing you guys... I don't mean to be a biatch really, it's just that i dun realise these things... So to you guys, im truely absolutely friggin sorry for everything i caused you... You guys were better off not knowing me srsly...

IM REALLY SORRY...

And umm, i kinda wrote this poem cause i was making it up in the bathroom. lol, kinda went in my head so... yea... Get ready for more crap comin your way.

I didn’t know that you were so broken inside
the feelin' the pain that you were tryin' to hide
with all the hurt and the pain
it could drive you insane
please stop with all the anger and ill keep my pride

i didn't know you were broken
didn't tell me so
and now i'm feeling a guilt
that I’m never letting go

i never thought you were sad
did i hurt you that bad?
so now I’m really sorry and one more thing, i'm glad

that you were so good to hide it
that even i couldn't find it
'cause it was hard to distinguish between a lie and truth

what happen to the times
you were smiling then
but i now i realized
it all had come to an End.

Hatin'

Well, im not saying i hate someone, i was just wondering about people hatin' each other, and themselves.

One thing, i don't see a point on hating ourselves. You are who you are, just accept it. Some people can hate themselves to the extend they can't handle it and well, BAM! suicide. Im not a hypocrite, there are some things i hate about myself too. Well i cry too much... (haha, crybaby here) It's either that or i'll emo over small matters. So drama right? Maybe because im being too sensitive over small things. Well i hate it. So from now on im trying to be tougher. lol.

People can also hate themselves 'cause maybe, they never forgave themselves for doing something in the past. Let me tell you something, forgiveness is HARD. Especially when you really regretted doing it and it changed your life foreva hahaha!!! *ehem ehem* sorry. Well, you cant just keep holding on to it forever right? It changed your life you say? It's part of your life! I mean, how would you know how your life was like if it didn't happen?

Ok, im sure everybody and i mean, EVERYBODY, went through this before. Hatin' on a certain someone... *looks around suspiciously* No matter what the cause, no matter how bitchy the attitude, it's gotta stop. I mean, i understand if that person did something to you, but you gotta understand that- *whispers* **they really don't mean it.** Maybe that person (let's call him/her bobo) Mayb bobo has some problems in her life, so they're just taking it out on you. Maybe bobo is going through a tough time right now, so having people hating bobo is giving him more stress and pressure. Then lagi bobo act like a b-, like that. So, you gotta replace hate with understanding. Either that or bobo's juz a retard. (sorry if anyone here's named bobo, i just used it 'cause it's a very... umm... unique name. lol)

I should stop here. Im not good at examining life anyway. haha ><>

"If you spend all your time to hate, then you won't have enough time to love"

Sorry the quote is so cacat, i forgotten the real one haha ><

letting go

Ok ok, i agree that i don't think be4 i say things... *rolls eyes*
so i shall taaake back all the stuff that i said, and let's juz forget about it and move on?
It's like the same thing happening all over again last year... during this time of month summore... always must have conflicts. ah well, that's life. So, im not gonna masuk campur anymore ok? happy?? k.